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Fear is the key?

So sang Iron Maiden. To what I ask.
People are back to work though there is an air of gloom all around. But I ask, why are we back to work? Why were people in different parts of the city still going to office yesterday? I personally know someone who almost went to the CST station yesterday - a place where indiscriminate firing had taken place day before evening. Because apparently he has some 'urgent' work. Oh totally. The only thing that stopped him was - offices and roads closed. Work so important.

When does the apathy end? When do we stop acting like ostriches with our necks so deep in the sand that extricating them is impossible. Fear. I feel fear. I feel so afraid that the places which I frequent so often have been attacked - and so mercilessly. That people I know have been shot at and forced to spend time inside hotels as collateral hostages.
It is scary to note that once again in Indian history people have to factor in 'killed by firearms' as one of the possibilities of "causes of death". Gone are the Peace times.
The top police men, including a man who is/ was a legend of encounter operations were killed - and their vehicle hijacked. Think about it. Three top police men and a fourth inside a car - get shot, killed, and their vehicle hijacked and driven away by terrorists.

The top hotels - landmarks of the city - nay - icons of the city are still occupied by terrorists. These men are so well trained that they have been continually monitoring their hostages (no one knows for sure whether they still have hostages) and fighting the armed forces for more than 36 hours now. I grant you that our forces are dealing with it well - systematically and cool headedly wiping clean the areas amidst irrational media pressure.

Already some international media are pointing to religious fascism as the cause. Balderash I say. If religion had something to do with it, the attacks wont be at religion neutral places and would not target international tourists. This is beyond religion. This is a hatred towards the country.

There is a feel of fear in the air, though people are tending to act normal. Some of them. Most though, are going on like nothing happened. It is this ... absence of acknowledgement that gets to me. Why are we not acknowledging that there is something seriously wrong??
What is wrong in saying that there is an issue - the country is at risk! At least if we openly face it we can openly work towards doing something about it - seeking help internally and externally if required. Why do we have to brush it all under the carpet and wish it away? There is a school of people who want to destroy the country and its economy by deeming it unsafe. They will not vanish if we don't acknowledge them. The don't-acknowledge-and-it-will-vanish strategy only works for tantrums by stupid children - and that too not always.
At a basic level people are more worried about stock prices than being shot. The news on TV is now a high TRP reality show to be discussed intermittently with lots of enthusiasm - gossip. As if it is a bad Hollywood movie minus Bruce Willis or Superman.

And that makes me scared. Scared about what happens next. Companies don't have the guts to ask employees not to come to work. The government does not care about putting a Red Alert on the city, much less a curfew for a day. That scares me even more. If we are a nation with a central government, why is it that we have to look out for our individual selves? The BSE is in Nariman Point. The place supposedly under curfew with Police and Army patrolling. Then how is it that people are sitting there and the stock market has opened?

Does it make the pain lesser if you dont react? Does it make you feel better if you avoid the issue? Perhaps it does. Perhaps that's why people here are not yet insane with apprehension and fear. Perhaps that's why the so-called 'blind eye' is being turned. For the comfort of peace situation. I don't know. I sure am trying to be part of the peace scenario while people get killed a few kilometers away. There is a tight sensation in my chest and I cant do anything about it. I cant go up and fight for the commandos there. I am not strong enough to start my own army for the country. All I can do is wait and watch and hope the axe does not fall on anyone I know - because thats when it hurts most. And then, like so many others, I come to office - but I try to work while others forget about those fighting for us.

I will do the least I can - remember them. Remember the day, feel the fear and tension.And I will not joke about it. Not diminish the essence and scale of the issue at hand. That's the least I can do.


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28th Nov, 2008 06:45 (UTC)
that was very moving.. the last few sentences make me feel very sad.. a sadness that reflects the utter helplessness and inability to directly influence events.
I earlier thought it was humanity which made me empathize with such tragedy, unlike people who are interested in the statistics such as people killed, time taken.. Its sensitivity, which is probably a result of education.
This is not a game, that you can keep count.
I have watched CNN reporters ridicule our NSG saying that their SWAT teams could probably have resolved the crisis in 2 hours, with terrorists not being more than kids.. Somebody tell them the same kids knocked down their WTC and killed 6000 people.. and the NSG has never had to deal with Fidayeen.. I have seen the army generals leading this operation, they are among the best we have, and our army is as good as anyone elses. This is the time to commend them and express solidarity not run them down as people on a channel last night did..(http://narendrashenoy.blogspot.com/2008/11/dear-mumbai-police-and-nsg.html)..
Fear is the key alright, but it is time that our enemies fear more than us, that day is surely coming..
28th Nov, 2008 06:47 (UTC)
Re: :(
read this line as and the SWAT has never had to deal with Fidayeen
28th Nov, 2008 07:15 (UTC)
Re: :(
true. The rest of answer in another post update.
28th Nov, 2008 18:21 (UTC)
Read your posts and completely agree with it.

I am scared, really scared and I am angry as well.

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