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Out of Body Experience

For the past few days I have realised that on entering office, and sitting on my seat I have what I want to call an Out of Body experience.
I am not me any more Dips, but DC, who works for this company. I impassively take a back seat, and do bare minimum work as and when required, just before deadlines. Its like Im a zombie. I am someone else..the body sitting here and doing work is someone else. I am the one who is somewhere else listening to music...there is this other person sitting in front of this screen doing some inane work, typing, with h eadphones on. I haev no feelings whatsoever gor the work going on, I feel nothing. I am not living...forget thriving...just surviving

I do not know exactly from when it has started...but when i noticed the early symptoms, i attributed it to pre-hols feeling..and perhaps now i can attribute it to just-back-from hols. But the fact of the matter is, I am no more the same enthusiastic hard-working person I was till some time ago.
It is slightly unnerving, because nothing seems to excite/move me. It has become a dull routine - surprisingly - because my job is anything but routine.
The pleasantries and topics touched upon with colleagues also has very slight variations, with more of my stress now on phone calls to frnds for intelligent stimulating conversation.
Excitement is sought after office hours - it is like I come to life the moment I step out of office. that everything in thw world is more intetresting than my work.

perhaps it is, perhaps it isnt. Perhaps what I need is patience, and a jolt - to somehow make myself come back to life - excitement and work...where I have some feelings...some feelings at all about what I am doing/ supposed to do.

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sashdude
17th Dec, 2005 11:32 (UTC)
ah well
A long break always does that to people, puts them outta sync with their work and normal life. But i d put it down to setting a high premium and standard on the way you work, i guess its a small lull before you move into an even higher gear than before.. :)
(Anonymous)
19th Dec, 2005 05:07 (UTC)
I can totally relate to what you are saying. D..I have been in this state for almost an year now!! and i know its bad. The enthu is lacking. I always feel that maybe a break will do me good, but it is always the same...pre or post break. Have given up hope now.
The reason I guess is being in a place for too long. You tend to become complacent. Life mein excitement nahi rehta.
Its high time JM... its been 2.5 years..

"Nothing is really work unless you would rather be doing something else"
rexjournal
19th Dec, 2005 13:31 (UTC)
Decision-time !!
It's time when you seriously think of shifting your grazing ground. Look for greener pastures if the grass starts to taste stale....
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